I know I say a lot on this blog, on my instagram, on my Facebook and Twitter that I love my job. That I love being a small business owner and I do. But that doesn't mean there aren't hard days. That doesn't mean it's all easy and wonderful. A lot of the time I feel like we post what we want people to see. The happy side of our lives. Today has not been a happy business owner day for me so far and I'd like to share that side today.
I already didn't feel like going into work today. Luckily, I had an amazing employee who came and opened the store for me so I could come in an hour later. I thoroughly enjoyed that extra hour of sleep!
As soon as I walk in the door, there's a customer on the phone wanting to speak to me. Those phone calls usually aren't nice. This one was not the exception. This person berated me for about 15 minutes for not carrying only compostable plates. Forget the fact that we actually do carry compostable plates, just not all our plates are compostable. Forget the fact that licensed plates (like Frozen or Despicable Me) are not made that way. Forget the fact that I am not the manufacturer and I have NO control over how the plates are made. No it is ALL my fault that these plates are not compostable and we are killing Mother Earth. For 15 minutes (which seemed like a lifetime) I had to sit and listen to this person tell me it is all my fault. I had to listen to my store (my baby) be insulted. All the hours I have spent here, setting new sections, all the time I spend at home bringing in new items, making my store the best I can all seemed wasted as I listened to this person. I was near tears by the time I was able to get off the phone. I felt my depression overcoming me. I started to feel worthless, to feel like nothing I ever did was good enough (depression sucks). I called my husband who listened to me and tried to calm me down. I repeated my favorite quote over and over to myself "it's just a bad moment, not a bad life". For the last 30 or so minutes, I have let this ONE person ruin my day so far. And I finally said ENOUGH. One person's thoughts do not define me. They do not define my store. They do not define everything I've put into this over the last TWO years. Don't let ONE person ruin your day today. Don't let ONE persons opinions ruin something you're passionate about, something you love, something you've put your heart and soul into.
Everyday is not easy and happy. Some days are HARD. Working in retail is HARD. Running a business is HARD. Struggling with depression is HARD. Struggling with infertility is HARD. But every day I wake up is a new day. I don't know what that day will bring but I know that I will NOT let ONE person's opinions ruin my day. A day can start over at any point. I choose to start my day over NOW. Today (even though it's 10:30am) will be a happy day for me and I hope it is for you too!
xoxo,
nikki
Tuesday, November 17, 2015
Sunday, November 15, 2015
A Smorgasbord of Information
It has been too long so this post will be full of information!
First off, I would like to say that my heart aches for the people of France. My prayers and thoughts are with them.
This last month has been CRAZY! The weekend before Halloween I had what I thought was a stomach bug. However, by Monday I still was not feeling any better or keeping anything down so I went to see a doctor who believed I had a stomach bug called gastritis. She gave me Zofran for the nausea and told me I should feel better. After another week and a half, I still was not keeping very much down and I had lost 13lbs!! (That was the silver lining of all of this!) I made an appointment with my actual doctor and after having a bunch of blood tests and an x-ray, he thought I had gastritis. He gave me a pill that reduces stomach acid which I take twice a day and a pill that lines my stomach, which I take four times a day. The pain in my stomach is better and I am keeping more food down but I am not 100% better yet. I am definitely glad to be feeling somewhat better!!
Halloween is busy for us at the store, it is one of our busiest weeks of the year. Unfortunately, we had an employee quit that week and I have been working 6 days a week at the store since. But back to Halloween, it was an amazing week! We were up compared to last year, which is what you always want! We made a lot of notes for what we need to carry next year. We ran out of black and white makeup, even though we ordered a ton!!
So the manager situation was frustrating to say the least. Being a small business owner, there are so many situations you have to deal with!! But this was just another situation that showed me that God is looking out. The week of Halloween, we had a manager quit. At the time I was angry (and that's putting it nicely), imagine having someone leave you during your busiest season of the year! But that same day I put out an ad for another manager and the girl who applied was just..amazing. By the end of the interview, I was thanking God and that person who quit for quitting because if she hadn't, we never would have put an ad out and found this person! The only downside was that she couldn't start until next week, so I am working 6 days a week until then. Not that I mind that at all. Even though it is a lot of hours and I do complain a bit (mostly because I am still sick and not keeping that much down), I really really really do enjoy working. I always have. I love getting out of the house and having interaction with other people.
Although I have been terribly sick and not feeling well, I am so grateful for the weight loss! I went from 151lbs to 136lbs in just three weeks! I feel so much better having lost so much weight. I am a huge advocate of being whatever weight makes you happy and I am so much happier at this weight than I was before! I was able to go shopping and get almost a whole new wardrobe!
Alright, well this blog seems like it is long enough now. I have a couple posts in my head that I am hoping to get around to writing soon! I wanted to write one of those today but I felt like a post was needed of what I have been up to since the last post!
xoxo
nikki
First off, I would like to say that my heart aches for the people of France. My prayers and thoughts are with them.
This last month has been CRAZY! The weekend before Halloween I had what I thought was a stomach bug. However, by Monday I still was not feeling any better or keeping anything down so I went to see a doctor who believed I had a stomach bug called gastritis. She gave me Zofran for the nausea and told me I should feel better. After another week and a half, I still was not keeping very much down and I had lost 13lbs!! (That was the silver lining of all of this!) I made an appointment with my actual doctor and after having a bunch of blood tests and an x-ray, he thought I had gastritis. He gave me a pill that reduces stomach acid which I take twice a day and a pill that lines my stomach, which I take four times a day. The pain in my stomach is better and I am keeping more food down but I am not 100% better yet. I am definitely glad to be feeling somewhat better!!
Halloween is busy for us at the store, it is one of our busiest weeks of the year. Unfortunately, we had an employee quit that week and I have been working 6 days a week at the store since. But back to Halloween, it was an amazing week! We were up compared to last year, which is what you always want! We made a lot of notes for what we need to carry next year. We ran out of black and white makeup, even though we ordered a ton!!
So the manager situation was frustrating to say the least. Being a small business owner, there are so many situations you have to deal with!! But this was just another situation that showed me that God is looking out. The week of Halloween, we had a manager quit. At the time I was angry (and that's putting it nicely), imagine having someone leave you during your busiest season of the year! But that same day I put out an ad for another manager and the girl who applied was just..amazing. By the end of the interview, I was thanking God and that person who quit for quitting because if she hadn't, we never would have put an ad out and found this person! The only downside was that she couldn't start until next week, so I am working 6 days a week until then. Not that I mind that at all. Even though it is a lot of hours and I do complain a bit (mostly because I am still sick and not keeping that much down), I really really really do enjoy working. I always have. I love getting out of the house and having interaction with other people.
Although I have been terribly sick and not feeling well, I am so grateful for the weight loss! I went from 151lbs to 136lbs in just three weeks! I feel so much better having lost so much weight. I am a huge advocate of being whatever weight makes you happy and I am so much happier at this weight than I was before! I was able to go shopping and get almost a whole new wardrobe!
Alright, well this blog seems like it is long enough now. I have a couple posts in my head that I am hoping to get around to writing soon! I wanted to write one of those today but I felt like a post was needed of what I have been up to since the last post!
xoxo
nikki
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