I guess it's time for an update seeing as how the boys have been here almost a month and I've only updated once!!
The first week or two was a really hard adjustment for me. Embarassingly enough, I broke down crying in front of our caseworker, of all people, who told me that everything I was feeling and dealing with was COMPLETELY NORMAL. After hearing that and talking it out with Cliff, I was able to stop withdrawing and start bonding with my boys.
It seems like the boys have been here so much longer than just 3 weeks! We are getting into a routine. They go to sports camp Mon-Fri which also helped me feel more normal and like things weren't totally spinning out of control. When they get home it's usually play outside for an hour, dinner, baths and bed. I'm learning to be VERY flexible and go with the flow. It's good to plan some things but more times than not we end up throwing our plans out the window and doing something else.
I really had to let go when it comes to food. I come from a "eat it or go hungry" mentality and you can't really do that when your caseworker comes once a month! We've ordered pizzas more times than I'd like to count and they eat corndogs and chicken nuggets often! We are starting to get them to eat veggies and fruits so I think it'll get better with time. D is SUPER PICKY (which you'd think I'd be used to dealing with Cliff!!) and doesn't really like to try anything new. He is the pizza lover and will ALWAYS say pizza (or corndogs) if you ask him what he wants to eat. Q is better about trying things, he's had some of my strawberry-banana smoothie (which he loves), strawberries, carrots, pickles, green tea, sleepy time tea...basically I'll tell him to eat something and 9 times out of 10 he'll try it. He'll usually only turn his nose up if D says he doesn't like it first. If I get Q by himself, he'll usually try it.
Q gets distracted by EVERYTHING!! He LOVES to touch everything. If he sees a button he has to know what it does. He'll take the magnets off the fridge and go around the house finding things that are magnetic. If you let him go upstairs by himself, he'll take ten minutes pausing on every step. He sings to himself in the bath. He's super cuddly and affectionate though. One morning we were cuddling on the couch and he said he was hungry so I asked him if he wanted to eat or cuddle and he said cuddle! So breakfast was a little late that day!
D is ACTIVE! I think he would live outside if we let him. He LOVES to go outside and play basketball! He also LOVES to ride his bike. He's riding without training wheels now! He had them for about two weeks I think and then he asked us to take them off and once they were off he took right off! Every day he comes home from Sports Camp (where they play sports ALL DAY outside) and asks to go outside and either play basketball or ride his bike. He loves to play volleyball at night in his room while we wait for Q to take his bath. He also loves to play lego video games with me!
Grandma and Grandpa David came out last weekend and the boys had SO MUCH FUN! Grandpa gave bull rides, which they LOVED! They showed Grandma how to play games on their ipods. They all built a train together. We went swimming, to the park, had pizza, and just had a really wonderful weekend.
I love seeing my boys love their grandparents, great-grandparents and Uncle Dale. Last night we were outside playing, they spotted Uncle Dale down the street and ran to give him hugs! They do this any time they see him, Great-Grandma, Great-Grandpa, Grandma, and Grandpa. I can't wait for them to meet the rest of their new family! They will love everyone!
Overall life is a LOT BUSIER now. We buy food A LOT MORE. We buy kids clothes A LOT. We're adjusting to our new normal and loving it!
xoxo
nikki
Friday, June 16, 2017
Wednesday, May 24, 2017
Day 1
As I type this, Q is sitting next to me playing on his ipod. It is so weird to have a sidekick! He's easy peasy though. He has a really good attention span. Once he gets on something, he'll do it for a good 30 minutes sometimes. Of course, he's got to be next to me right now which is fine and also understandable. If I go in the other room, he's right behind. But it is really nice that I can get work done (and this done) and he'll just play on his ipod.
Cliff's got the other sidekick. He's a little more active than his brother. He LOVES to go outside and play basketball or just go outside. He likes going for walks with his scooter. His attention span is much more sporadic. Sometimes he'll play something for awhile and other times he's switching from activity to activity every five minutes. He's also super attached to Dad. Dad left yesterday to go to the store and every five or so minutes D was at the door looking for him or swearing he saw his car or heard the car. Q is a little more attached to me but he mostly attaches to both of us equally. D will give me hugs and do things with me but I can already tell that he's more attached to Dad.
We're mostly going with the flow over here. I'm trying to start a routine as far as when they eat, shower and go to bed but during the day we're *trying* to just do what they want to do.
Q lost a tooth yesterday! When we picked them up at the airport, he was showing me he could wiggle it, then a couple hours later he just pulled it out! I was so proud of him! Then he took his stuffed rabbit into the bath with him and got it all soapy, I was not so proud of him at that point! I ended up calling my mom (thank goodness for my mom!) to find out how to wash it in the washing machine. It came out fine, thank goodness and I've learned my first mom lesson!
The days are punctuated with A LOT of "good jobs". What else do you say when they say "i beat this level" "i did such and such". They are very polite and say "thank you" for everything!! They'll randomly give hugs.
It is definitely an adjustment. I got up at 6:45, thinking that was early enough and they were already up when I got downstairs! They didn't go to bed til after 9!
While I was typing this, D came in and gave me a hug. He just wanted to know where Q and I were.
And now I've got to go because Q wants to go outside with everyone else. See, he gave me about 30 mins!
I'll update when I can.
xoxo
nikki
Cliff's got the other sidekick. He's a little more active than his brother. He LOVES to go outside and play basketball or just go outside. He likes going for walks with his scooter. His attention span is much more sporadic. Sometimes he'll play something for awhile and other times he's switching from activity to activity every five minutes. He's also super attached to Dad. Dad left yesterday to go to the store and every five or so minutes D was at the door looking for him or swearing he saw his car or heard the car. Q is a little more attached to me but he mostly attaches to both of us equally. D will give me hugs and do things with me but I can already tell that he's more attached to Dad.
We're mostly going with the flow over here. I'm trying to start a routine as far as when they eat, shower and go to bed but during the day we're *trying* to just do what they want to do.
Q lost a tooth yesterday! When we picked them up at the airport, he was showing me he could wiggle it, then a couple hours later he just pulled it out! I was so proud of him! Then he took his stuffed rabbit into the bath with him and got it all soapy, I was not so proud of him at that point! I ended up calling my mom (thank goodness for my mom!) to find out how to wash it in the washing machine. It came out fine, thank goodness and I've learned my first mom lesson!
The days are punctuated with A LOT of "good jobs". What else do you say when they say "i beat this level" "i did such and such". They are very polite and say "thank you" for everything!! They'll randomly give hugs.
It is definitely an adjustment. I got up at 6:45, thinking that was early enough and they were already up when I got downstairs! They didn't go to bed til after 9!
While I was typing this, D came in and gave me a hug. He just wanted to know where Q and I were.
And now I've got to go because Q wants to go outside with everyone else. See, he gave me about 30 mins!
I'll update when I can.
xoxo
nikki
Wednesday, May 10, 2017
Finally Settling In
We've been in this house almost two years and I finally have finished decorating the kitchen!
It all started two days (yes, 2) before the boys were coming for their visit. See our kitchen had wallpaper (ick) and we had picked out a color, oh about 6 months earlier. (We like to stretch projects out around here). Well, the problem was that I had painted a small section of the wallpaper to see if the color would 1) look good and 2) cover the wallpaper so I wouldn't have to remove it. So, now I had 3 problems: 1) I didn't like the color (it was coral), 2) it didn't cover the wallpaper, 3) the boys caseworker was dropping them off and we didn't want her seeing our kitchen with part of it painted.
So for the next 12 hours, I patiently peeled wallpaper off our kitchen walls. Yes, I did realize the irony that I have the patience to peel wallpaper but don't have the patience to wait for the boys paperwork.
Would it surprise you if I said I had before pics? Yeah, it'd surprise me too! Here's a pic from before the house was ours:
It doesn't look like wallpaper but see the "tan-colored" wall, yeah, that's super tacky wallpaper:
It all started two days (yes, 2) before the boys were coming for their visit. See our kitchen had wallpaper (ick) and we had picked out a color, oh about 6 months earlier. (We like to stretch projects out around here). Well, the problem was that I had painted a small section of the wallpaper to see if the color would 1) look good and 2) cover the wallpaper so I wouldn't have to remove it. So, now I had 3 problems: 1) I didn't like the color (it was coral), 2) it didn't cover the wallpaper, 3) the boys caseworker was dropping them off and we didn't want her seeing our kitchen with part of it painted.
So for the next 12 hours, I patiently peeled wallpaper off our kitchen walls. Yes, I did realize the irony that I have the patience to peel wallpaper but don't have the patience to wait for the boys paperwork.
Would it surprise you if I said I had before pics? Yeah, it'd surprise me too! Here's a pic from before the house was ours:
It doesn't look like wallpaper but see the "tan-colored" wall, yeah, that's super tacky wallpaper:
Now here's the wall after 12 hours of wallpaper removal:
And after it was painted:
You can't see very well, but it's a blue-gray more blue than gray.
We got all that done before the boys vist (phew!) but it was just a blank wall. It took me another 2 months to figure out how to decorate it but I JUST finished!
Starting left to right:
These cute canvas prints I painted:
More canvas art by me:
Love this for the kitchen also by me:
And our family rules, which you can actually (if you have good eyesight) read from the front door! And done by me!
Finally, the words over each window:
Yes, I taped and painted each individual letter. Yes, it was time consuming. Yes, it was a lot of work. Yes, WE LOVE IT!
Oops, almost forgot:
The clock over the fireplace that CLIFF MADE!! We know now what time it is when we're sitting in the living room!
So the kitchen is FINALLY finished being decorated! I love living in a house with color and decor on the wall, especially decor I made!
The living room is in progress but currently has one wall done:
I loved the cute idea I found here: http://www.itsoverflowing.com/2013/04/diy-frame/
We tweaked it a little bit because I order 4x6's EVERY TIME Shutterfly has their 101 free prints and I wanted somewhere to hang them that was easy to change out.
There you have it! Besides work, this has been keeping me busy but I'm thankful we got it all done before the boys get here! 13 MORE DAYS!!!
xoxo
nikki
Tuesday, April 11, 2017
Paperwork Problems
At this point, it has been 3 months since we met the boys for the first time. The first month and a
half-ish, the two states were negotiating the contract. When the boys came to visit, the ICPC was just being sent off.
Here's what I knew about ICPC then (from Internet research):
It wasn't supposed to take too long. It's basically the boys home state going through a checklist, checking off that we have everything, sending everything to Colorado, Colorado doing the same thing and sending it back saying approved, then we get the call saying come get your boys! It could take a week to two weeks.
Well, well, well. About a week after our ICPC was sent off, we got a call from our county. "Hi, we need to schedule your home study and we're sending you some fingerprint cards in the mail." "Uh, WHAT?!" We told them we had a home study and we'd done fingerprint cards, background checks, child abuse checks (in every state we've ever lived in) and they were basically saying that none of that was any good and it had to be done through the county instead of through an agency. We couldn't be too mad at the girl calling because she was just reading what the paperwork Nevada had sent said.
Oh, by the way, we went through a private, small agency to get all this done. So, of course, the head of our agency was in AFRICA that week. We called our caseworker, here in Colorado, and told her what the county had said and she immediately said she'd call and get it taken care of because it made no sense. While she was working on figuring out the problem, for about 3 days we thought we were going to have to go through EVERYTHING again. I was MAD.
Finally, by the end of the week, our caseworker and the county person called us and told us that the paperwork had been filled out wrong. There was just one box that needed to be checked. Easy fix, right? Wrong. There are no easy, quick fixes. The paperwork had to be REDONE and RESUBMITTED to Nevada, then sent to our county, then Colorado.
"Ok, so once it gets to Colorado and they approve it that's it, right?" We asked.
"Yes." They all replied.
Fast forward a week to yesterday. We call our caseworker. She tells us that Colorado has approved it and sent it to Nevada to be approved. WAIT, WHAT?! Yeah, once Colorado approves it then Nevada reapproves it (I guess) and we should be getting the call ANY DAY NOW.
We have been told ANY DAY NOW for about the past two weeks. Every time we think it's over, there's something else that pops up.
This process has made me remember something that somebody, somewhere at some point in my life told me:
"The devil doesn't want you to have the things that are good and right for you. If you are going after something that is right for your life, he is going to throw every obstacle at you but that's how you know what you're doing is right."
If there has ever been anytime in my life that this quote has fit perfectly, it's NOW. There have been SO MANY OBSTACLES trying to get our boys here. We already know that this is what God wants but that quote is getting me through this trying time.
So, here's to ANY DAY NOW, which could be this week, next week or next month. Our boys will get here when they're supposed to. And life will change dramatically and we can't wait but we are trying to enjoy these days where it's just the two of us.
xoxo
nikki
half-ish, the two states were negotiating the contract. When the boys came to visit, the ICPC was just being sent off.
Here's what I knew about ICPC then (from Internet research):
It wasn't supposed to take too long. It's basically the boys home state going through a checklist, checking off that we have everything, sending everything to Colorado, Colorado doing the same thing and sending it back saying approved, then we get the call saying come get your boys! It could take a week to two weeks.
Well, well, well. About a week after our ICPC was sent off, we got a call from our county. "Hi, we need to schedule your home study and we're sending you some fingerprint cards in the mail." "Uh, WHAT?!" We told them we had a home study and we'd done fingerprint cards, background checks, child abuse checks (in every state we've ever lived in) and they were basically saying that none of that was any good and it had to be done through the county instead of through an agency. We couldn't be too mad at the girl calling because she was just reading what the paperwork Nevada had sent said.
Oh, by the way, we went through a private, small agency to get all this done. So, of course, the head of our agency was in AFRICA that week. We called our caseworker, here in Colorado, and told her what the county had said and she immediately said she'd call and get it taken care of because it made no sense. While she was working on figuring out the problem, for about 3 days we thought we were going to have to go through EVERYTHING again. I was MAD.
Finally, by the end of the week, our caseworker and the county person called us and told us that the paperwork had been filled out wrong. There was just one box that needed to be checked. Easy fix, right? Wrong. There are no easy, quick fixes. The paperwork had to be REDONE and RESUBMITTED to Nevada, then sent to our county, then Colorado.
"Ok, so once it gets to Colorado and they approve it that's it, right?" We asked.
"Yes." They all replied.
Fast forward a week to yesterday. We call our caseworker. She tells us that Colorado has approved it and sent it to Nevada to be approved. WAIT, WHAT?! Yeah, once Colorado approves it then Nevada reapproves it (I guess) and we should be getting the call ANY DAY NOW.
We have been told ANY DAY NOW for about the past two weeks. Every time we think it's over, there's something else that pops up.
This process has made me remember something that somebody, somewhere at some point in my life told me:
"The devil doesn't want you to have the things that are good and right for you. If you are going after something that is right for your life, he is going to throw every obstacle at you but that's how you know what you're doing is right."
If there has ever been anytime in my life that this quote has fit perfectly, it's NOW. There have been SO MANY OBSTACLES trying to get our boys here. We already know that this is what God wants but that quote is getting me through this trying time.
So, here's to ANY DAY NOW, which could be this week, next week or next month. Our boys will get here when they're supposed to. And life will change dramatically and we can't wait but we are trying to enjoy these days where it's just the two of us.
xoxo
nikki
Friday, April 7, 2017
It's Fixed
When the boys were here visiting D noticed these pictures on our wall:
And asked me why we had these states on our wall. I answered that those were all the states that we had lived in. His next question was where Nevada was. Without thinking, I answered we've never lived in Nevada. His response "Me and Q live there". Immediately I told him that he was right and we'll have to fix the wall. Well today, I finally fixed it:
It's truly incredible how much love I have for these two little humans who have only been in my life 3 months. I also had some pictures printed from Shutterfly to hang on our wall and when I showed them the pictures over FaceTime they were so excited. They even remembered taking them! D asked me where I was going to put them and I asked him if he wanted me to wait until he gets here and he can help me hang them which he was really excited about!
We are missing them so much and although FaceTime is awesome, it is also hard to see their faces and not be able to hug them. We are just going day by day, hoping to hear that our placement has been approved by both states. This process has been slow and hard to handle on some days. Like that one day when the county called me and told me they had to do a new home study for us and we had to have our fingerprints redone. Yeah, that happened. Thankfully, it was all a HUGE misunderstanding and our home study and fingerprints that we already have were correct. And then other days are good. Like when Cliff and I go shopping at 10pm and I think about how soon we won't be able to do that. I'm living in the moment right now. Not planning for the future, just taking every day as it comes. Trying to be positive.
When life gets too hard, I always fall to my knees. God knows His plan for us and all we have to do is have faith and trust in Him. The timing will work out how it's supposed to. The boys will get here when they are supposed to.
xoxo
nikki
We are missing them so much and although FaceTime is awesome, it is also hard to see their faces and not be able to hug them. We are just going day by day, hoping to hear that our placement has been approved by both states. This process has been slow and hard to handle on some days. Like that one day when the county called me and told me they had to do a new home study for us and we had to have our fingerprints redone. Yeah, that happened. Thankfully, it was all a HUGE misunderstanding and our home study and fingerprints that we already have were correct. And then other days are good. Like when Cliff and I go shopping at 10pm and I think about how soon we won't be able to do that. I'm living in the moment right now. Not planning for the future, just taking every day as it comes. Trying to be positive.
When life gets too hard, I always fall to my knees. God knows His plan for us and all we have to do is have faith and trust in Him. The timing will work out how it's supposed to. The boys will get here when they are supposed to.
xoxo
nikki
Wednesday, March 8, 2017
Am I Ready?
As the time gets closer, they've landed, they're picking up the rental car and then driving out here! My nerves are going a mile a minute. I realize this is JUST a visit (believe me I've been told that 1,000 times) but it is so much more than that. This is the first time we get them at home, all to ourselves. Of course our caseworker is coming over to meet the boys so we're not totally by ourselves but still. The boys are on our home turf. We know where to take them, we are comfortable here. This is our (and someday their) home.
Still I couldn't help thinking "am i ready?" last night. For seven years, it's just been me and Cliff. No kids to answer to. No kids to think about. We could up and go to Wal-Mart at 10pm if we wanted to. For so long, I didn't think I would ever have kids. And in an hour they will be taking over my home! It has been such a long ride. I worry I'm not ready.
Who is ever ready for such a big change? We've been waiting for this for 11 months. We've been through the training. We are more than ready in that way. Am I ready emotionally? Am I ready for less sleep?
Yes, it's only a week. But it's a glimpse into our future. Eventually (hopefully soon) they will be here full time. And that's exciting, awesome, scary and happy.
Am I ready? In some ways, yes. In some ways, probably not. I do know that this is going to change our life in a lot of ways. Bring on the changes! I will never be 100% ready.
"If we wait until we're ready, we'll be waiting for the rest of our lives."
xoxo
nikki
Still I couldn't help thinking "am i ready?" last night. For seven years, it's just been me and Cliff. No kids to answer to. No kids to think about. We could up and go to Wal-Mart at 10pm if we wanted to. For so long, I didn't think I would ever have kids. And in an hour they will be taking over my home! It has been such a long ride. I worry I'm not ready.
Who is ever ready for such a big change? We've been waiting for this for 11 months. We've been through the training. We are more than ready in that way. Am I ready emotionally? Am I ready for less sleep?
Yes, it's only a week. But it's a glimpse into our future. Eventually (hopefully soon) they will be here full time. And that's exciting, awesome, scary and happy.
Am I ready? In some ways, yes. In some ways, probably not. I do know that this is going to change our life in a lot of ways. Bring on the changes! I will never be 100% ready.
"If we wait until we're ready, we'll be waiting for the rest of our lives."
xoxo
nikki
Wednesday, March 1, 2017
Life Lately (Because I can't think of a title any better than that)
I've been quiet on social media lately and that's because I've fallen into what I call the "social media lie". For the most part, we post on social media when things are happy and positive, we don't want to show the dark, bad sides of our lives, only the positive. Well, lately every time I've gone to post it's been negative so I've deleted it.
Today I knew a blog needed to be written about life lately so even though it's gonna be a little (probably a lot) negative, here it is.
Adoption update....*DRUMROLL PLEASE*.... We are.....
STILL WAITING. Now that we have signed our part of the contract we are now waiting on the other state to get their *stuff* together and sign their part so we can begin ICPC.
ICPC (Interstate Compact for the Placement of Children (I knew that without even having to look it up, that's how much we've all talked about it)): Once everything is signed, all our paperwork and the boys paperwork will go to the other state's social services where they will check and make sure everything is there and send it on to Colorado. Denver's social services will check everything, make sure it's all there and send it on to our county, who will also make sure everything is there and once they ok it, we get to go get the boys!!! We have heard time frames anywhere from 1 month to 3 months. It just depends on how long our paperwork sits on someone's desk. The good news is that once the paperwork gets to Colorado, our caseworker has said she is familiar with Denver and our county's social service departments so she will be able to call them and at least see where the paperwork is, which will be really nice!! We love our caseworker so much!!
Lately, I have just been feeling frustrated. I am very thankful for such a kind, caring foster home. I am thankful that the process is going fairly smoothly and quickly. Our caseworker out here is so wonderful and on top of things, we call her with questions all the time and she always has answers. She has told us she will call the caseworker (or foster family), however we just don't want to rock the boat. It has been difficult for me because all the people on our side are out here and it sometimes feels like there is no one on our side out there. (Does that make sense? Probably not). We just want to feel more involved, I think. Someone else, right now, is raising our kids and we are not involved in the daily decisions (or any decisions, really). I worry about how some of the decisions that are made will affect my kids in the future. Sometimes I just want to scream "I'm going to be raising them for the rest of their lives, don't make it harder on me!" We are not in control, we have no say in anything and that is freaking hard. One of the hardest parts is that we don't know what the caseworker out there is saying and telling the foster parents. No one is sharing that information with us and maybe there's no information to share. Maybe she's telling them the same things she's telling us. There are SO MANY questions in my mind. And FaceTime is wonderful but the connections aren't always great, I miss what my boys say sometimes.
I guess what it all boils down to is just that we are ready for them to come home. We are ready for them to call us (and only us) "Mom and Dad". We are ready for them to be a part of our lives already. We just miss them so much.
As far as the store is concerned, something VERY EXCITING did happen!!
After SIX MONTHS, WE FINALLY GOT OUR SIGN!!! There is one on the other side of the building as well and we are SUPER EXCITED! It has been difficult running a business out of a building with a banner (and then when the city made us take that down) no sign. There have been some bumps in the road lately but now that we FINALLY have our sign, we believe we will be busier. Plus we still have St. Patricks to go through! February just sucks because its one week short. If only we could have had another week in February, that would have really helped!
Chewey's "castration" finally healed and is looking really good. That was a tough week and a half on both us and him. He really hated wearing the cone and the onesie (and neither one kept him from licking the spot) so we had to keep an eye on him 24/7. There were a lot of days where I just sat on the couch with my laptop ALL DAY LONG. We are very thankful to be past that and it actually does seem to be helping with his marking! We're glad we got it done before the boys get here too!
Tron had a crick in his neck, where he would cry when he would turn his head a certain way so he got to go to the vet and get some anti-inflammatory pills. He seems to be doing much better now, I think he just slept the wrong way!
So this post was only partly negative! We'll get past the hard days, there just seem to be more of those lately but all we can do is pray, trust in God's timing and try really, really hard to focus more on the good and beauty in each day rather than focusing on the negative and hard stuff.
xoxo
nikki
Today I knew a blog needed to be written about life lately so even though it's gonna be a little (probably a lot) negative, here it is.
Adoption update....*DRUMROLL PLEASE*.... We are.....
STILL WAITING. Now that we have signed our part of the contract we are now waiting on the other state to get their *stuff* together and sign their part so we can begin ICPC.
ICPC (Interstate Compact for the Placement of Children (I knew that without even having to look it up, that's how much we've all talked about it)): Once everything is signed, all our paperwork and the boys paperwork will go to the other state's social services where they will check and make sure everything is there and send it on to Colorado. Denver's social services will check everything, make sure it's all there and send it on to our county, who will also make sure everything is there and once they ok it, we get to go get the boys!!! We have heard time frames anywhere from 1 month to 3 months. It just depends on how long our paperwork sits on someone's desk. The good news is that once the paperwork gets to Colorado, our caseworker has said she is familiar with Denver and our county's social service departments so she will be able to call them and at least see where the paperwork is, which will be really nice!! We love our caseworker so much!!
Lately, I have just been feeling frustrated. I am very thankful for such a kind, caring foster home. I am thankful that the process is going fairly smoothly and quickly. Our caseworker out here is so wonderful and on top of things, we call her with questions all the time and she always has answers. She has told us she will call the caseworker (or foster family), however we just don't want to rock the boat. It has been difficult for me because all the people on our side are out here and it sometimes feels like there is no one on our side out there. (Does that make sense? Probably not). We just want to feel more involved, I think. Someone else, right now, is raising our kids and we are not involved in the daily decisions (or any decisions, really). I worry about how some of the decisions that are made will affect my kids in the future. Sometimes I just want to scream "I'm going to be raising them for the rest of their lives, don't make it harder on me!" We are not in control, we have no say in anything and that is freaking hard. One of the hardest parts is that we don't know what the caseworker out there is saying and telling the foster parents. No one is sharing that information with us and maybe there's no information to share. Maybe she's telling them the same things she's telling us. There are SO MANY questions in my mind. And FaceTime is wonderful but the connections aren't always great, I miss what my boys say sometimes.
I guess what it all boils down to is just that we are ready for them to come home. We are ready for them to call us (and only us) "Mom and Dad". We are ready for them to be a part of our lives already. We just miss them so much.
As far as the store is concerned, something VERY EXCITING did happen!!
Chewey's "castration" finally healed and is looking really good. That was a tough week and a half on both us and him. He really hated wearing the cone and the onesie (and neither one kept him from licking the spot) so we had to keep an eye on him 24/7. There were a lot of days where I just sat on the couch with my laptop ALL DAY LONG. We are very thankful to be past that and it actually does seem to be helping with his marking! We're glad we got it done before the boys get here too!
Tron had a crick in his neck, where he would cry when he would turn his head a certain way so he got to go to the vet and get some anti-inflammatory pills. He seems to be doing much better now, I think he just slept the wrong way!
So this post was only partly negative! We'll get past the hard days, there just seem to be more of those lately but all we can do is pray, trust in God's timing and try really, really hard to focus more on the good and beauty in each day rather than focusing on the negative and hard stuff.
xoxo
nikki
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