God's Plan

These two quotes sum up my life lately. Even when I'm not at work, or in my home office, I am ALWAYS thinking about work. What to order, where to order it from, making sure the store looks good, switching register systems, doing inventory, and on and on and on. Starting/owning/running any kind of business is NOT a get rich quick scheme. It is hard, hard work and takes lots, lots, lots of time. That being said, I still love everything I do, just that I don't have as much time as I think I do!

I have been trying to sit down and write this post for at least two weeks now. I have been wanting to write about God's plan and God's timing. We live in a society where we want things NOW. We may not be patient, or we may not trust that God has a plan. Sometimes it is REALLY hard to trust that He knows when we need things. Quite often when we are in the middle of a rough time, we cannot see that God has a plan. But after we make it through, we can see exactly how God was guiding us.

In 2012, we went to a fertility specialist for the first time. The news just went downhill from there. Bad news after bad news. My depression came back. I was living in a house with no a/c, no heat, no stove, and no hot water. I was in a neighborhood where I couldn't really walk around outside. And now I was told I had a slim to none chance of conceiving naturally. There were days, weeks, months where I didn't get out of bed. I rarely changed out of pajamas. And I would spend hours during the day praying and begging God to give me a child. I would pray and pray and pray for him to give me what I wanted. And then we were blessed. Blessed to be able to move out of that house and into a new city, new neighborhood, new house with all those crazy amenities (heat, a/c, stove, AND hot water!!) And after we moved, I could see why God hadn't given me what I wanted, how crazy I was to try to bring a baby into that house! God knew what he was doing. But I still didn't want to trust. I now spent even more time trying to convince God to give me a baby. I was living in a nice house now, in a nice neighborhood, I should have a baby now! But God still had more in plan for me. Shortly before we were blessed to move to Colorado, I decided to change my prayers. Instead of praying that God would give me what I thought I wanted, I started praying for the strength to follow whatever God's will and plan was. Everyday when I woke up, and throughout the day, I would pray for strength, strength to trust in God and to follow whatever his will was. Not long after changing my mentality and my prayers, we were blessed to move to Colorado, to be closer to family, and given the opportunity to start our own business.  I realized that God's plan was SO SO SO much better than mine. I began to realize that if I was meant to have a child, God would provide a miracle. And if I wasn't meant to have a child, then that was God's plan. I know that I can be happy either way, whether we have a child or we don't, I have already been blessed beyond measure.

It is hard when we are going through trials to see God's plan. It is hard to see His hand guiding our lives. It is REALLY hard to have faith when we are going through these trials. But God does know what he is doing! He does have a plan and he has PERFECT timing. We just have to have faith in Him and be willing to follow His plan and let Him guide our lives.

xoxo
nikki